Wandering in darkness grope,
Finding not a glimpse of hope.
Fingers touch to find my way,
Each foot fall, my heart betrays
The fear which drives me through the day.
Suddenly the ground is lost,
Flailing arms as body's tossed.
Splashing down in crimson pool,
The warm embrace is much too cruel,
I curse this lowly, wretched fool.
Floundering in this self made hell,
Warmth increasing as I dwell,
Within the confines I create,
Screaming as myself berate,
Giving in to this, my fate.

not going out today.

see, im a good girl. not going out despite it being the holidays.

bleahs, well actually cos cherie and joey are busy finding jobs luh.

so no one to accompany me to macRitchie reservoir. sigh sigh.

okie, i know my entry is getting shorter and shorter each day.

but no worries, i went to look up the Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia and decided to go in depth of kelly clarkson's video, because of you.

yea, i know, its a old video.

nevertheless, its still one of my all time favourites.

the emotions are so real, and the problem with dysfunctional family is so common.

kind of stuck with problem like this right now, oh well, never mind.

just enjoy this video once more.

here's the explanation of the video.

The video starts off one afternoon at the Clarkson household.

There, Kelly and her husband are engaged in a heated argument, and at one point he takes a picture of the family and threatens to smash it.

However, he never gets the chance to, as time freezes still and her husband becomes immobile;

Clarkson, however, is immune to this.

Looking around the corners of her house, she sees a sight that surprises her: her younger self.
Hand in hand, the younger and older Clarkson relive Clarkson's troubled childhood as various painful memories are seen such as the younger Clarkson making a picture for her father to admire, which is then tossed into the sink, and Clarkson's mother making an unappreciated dinner for her father.

These events drive her mother to the point of taking pills and crying publicly in front of the younger Clarkson.
The breaking point is finally seen when Clarkson's parents have a physical fight and throw objects at each other.

Soon after, Clarkson's father packs his bags, as he is leaving the family;

although the younger Clarkson tries to get him to stay, he pulls away.

Filled with the memories of her past, the older Clarkson has seen enough and runs back in time to the present. There, time unfreezes and instead of fighting with her husband, they make up.

Clarkson's daughter in the video can be seen walking around the corner.

Clarkson has finally broken the cycle of having a dysfunctional family.

omg, i swear kelly is so my idol!

kelly clarkson! whoooooo!

okie, let me explain to you another of my all-time favourites.

concrete angel by martina mcbride.

i cried when i saw the video for the first time okie!

and i cried again when i saw the video the second time okie!

and i didnt cry when i watched it for the third time already.

but i was still feeling very sorry for the little girl. sigh. :(

The main theme of the song is child abuse.

The song tells a story about a little girl who's trying to deal with abuse from her alcoholic mother.

Some people, including the girl's teacher, seem to notice signs of abuse, but just try to ignore it.

Ultimately, the little girl is killed when her mother beats her to death in a drunken rage.
The music video slightly seemed to lighten the mood of the song.

In the video, the girl is befriended by a little boy.

Whenever this boy comes around, the girl smiles and forgets all her troubles.

At the end of the video, it is revealed that the little boy is really an angel who's been watching over the little girl.

okie, so initially, cherie and i were thinking why is it that the little boy could go through the guy in black and thought maybe because he's dead too.

haha, but we actually didnt thought of the title of the song, concrete angel.

so yeap, the little boy's an angel!

sigh. so where's my godsend angel?

flalalala. :D

until then, byebye!

did you think everytime i see you i would cry?

stereo_loud; white flag.